All or Nothing

I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eye
I thought with time you'd realize
It's over over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something somewhere's got to give
As sharing this relationship gets older older
You know I'd fight for you
But how I can fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you
I dont care if that's not fair

Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart
But I dont show it show it
And then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe it's right
I know know it

Don't me make me promises
Baby you never did know how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
It's time for show and tell

Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No room inside for me in your life
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
It's now or never

LOVE is GAME.

Wanna game me? Yeah give it a try Mr Nazrynn & Mr Syafik. Havin a fair behind me? Yeah awesome, cause me havin either

lifey

Me Starting A new life with a cigarette

BUT I'm not a smoker :)

I'm loving my Iphone

but I want a BB so much!

Akhi

Are you my love?

♥ ♥ ♥

Am I in love with you?

Cause we nearly spend our time together?

Can't get you outta my mind,

You're the one I'm thinking now

Are you the one?

-______________-

Text me

I wanted to text you. I want my mr. But nahh my ego told me not so. Haihh, I misss youuu Mr! :( Text me text me text me text me :(

mr

I miss you mr! I really really missed our dates. Hmm, I begg you to put your ego aside and say you miss me too. Cause I know that you miss me. Duhhhh

:)

Woot woot! I've new loveee. He's moving on so am I now. Huh, finally man. I know hes being fair with me all the time. He gave me a guy to replace you in my life. Same goes to you. Haha, You know what, All your stuff I put it nicely in a box. Your ring and duit raya you bagi I tu. Thanks baby but It's over now. Totally over. < / 3

Fuck you!

What you want from me bitch? Heyy! Be matured lah I didn't bother your life en? Kenapa post? Cakap ah depan depan. Than Ingat Aku baca ah? Eh hello sikit pun aku tk heran lah sundal. Get messed with me? Wrong person man.

Moved on

Goddd! Finally I'm awake! Haha. I moved on and no more you. So give me some hot guys around me as a gift! haha. But even, I've moved on, you're still in me. I don't need you as my boyfriend as a "friend" maybe. I felt nothing when you're with her cause she deserve you more I guess. I need to moved on so I can forget you much easily. :) Its hard for me to let you go but I need too. Even you didn't gave me the answer but I guess I know what is it. Although we still love each other but we mean to be only friend or strangers. Im not mad at you havin her, but please ask her not to bother me. Tagged me her photos with stupid caption, stalked my wall post and replied at her wall post. I didn't gave her and shoot her with the post but she PERASAN that is for her. She's bigger than me so think maturedly I don't want any fight between me and her or you and me. What we had done and had yet done it become a best memories for me. And I hope Its for you too. Forgive me, if I did something touches your feeling. Remember what I said, I just want my mr to be happy. Thats all. Enough is enough past is past and Its over. TQ :)

Today I've great time with em Helmi, Iqbal Lily Biee Bobak Arif Omar & Shuk. They lighted my life and gave me some support. By them I know value of friend and boyfriend is just a game.

letting go

Im letting you go slowly. I know I'll regret it one day but its better for me to lose you now than later. Even though Im sad, but this is the best way I think so. Cause I don't want to be game or be a fool. I hoped you'll find someone better, someone can stand with you. And most important how she treat you and love you. Don't need to worry about me anymore. When we accidently saw each other I'm begging you please don't look , call and talk to me. Cause I'll miss you by than. I'll pray for your happiness and I hope someone can love you better than me. Take care sayang.

P/S ; I love you Aidil

duhh

You're different and we are not happy like we use to be. I don't know how this could happened. But I think you're not happy with me now. Even you gave me second chance, but it will be worst if we're still like this.

Turn it up- Pixie Lott

I know you can't stay
So i won't be waiting
Anticipating for the fall
We had our time baby
so i won't be waiting, Anticipating for the ca-a-all

Baby, it's over
we both know, lets go forward
i love you but in a different way
i love you, forever

now that we've come to the end of our story,
and i know its gunna be hard for me,
might hurt some, might get too much
but i gotta let it be
as the world turns around and we go different places
new things new dreams new faces,
what a shake up, when we break up
but we keep the memories

I know you can't stay
so i wont be waiting, anticipating for the fall
we had our time baby
so i wont be waiting
anticiptaing for the call

turn it up turn it up
for the people that say
were moving and we'll be okay
turn it up turn it up
for the people that say
were moving and we'll be okay

maybe? its better, and i want you to be happy,
sometimes people find it so hard just to say goodbye,
it aint easy the more and the more you try,
so they'l be cheating be deciveing,
but not me and my boy

we understand that were friends and it just aint working,
no point in the constant fighting,
so we'l be grown ups
for a minute
and admit were just in it

I know you can't stay
so i wont be waiting, anticipating for the fall
we had our time baby
so i wont be waiting
anticiptaing for the call

turn it up turn it up
for the people that say
were moving and we'll be okay
turn it up turn it up
for the people that say
were moving and we'll be okay,

i might lose my mind for a while
but i'll be fine
have you heard this thing that heals and its called time
clock can tick away
happy will fall in place
and though my heart will break a new me,
will fill the space

I know you can't stay
so i wont be waiting, anticipating for the fall
we had our time baby
so i wont be waiting
anticiptaing for the call

turn it up turn it up
for the people that say
were moving and we'll be okay
turn it up turn it up
for the people that say
were moving and we'll be okay

Just a dream

I was thinkin about you
Im thinkin about me
Im thinkin about us
Where we gunna be
Open my eyes…
And it was only just a dream

So i travel back down that road
Wish you come back
No one knows
And i realize, it was only just a dream

I was at the top
Now its like i’m in the basement
Number 1 spot
Now hes finding a replacement
I swear now i cant take it
Knowing somebodys got my boy

Now you wait around, baby i cant think
I should put it down, shoulda got that ring
Cuz i can still feel it in the air
See your pretty face
Run my fingers through her hair

My love
My life
My shorty
my boy

He left me, i’m tight

Cuz i knew that it just aint right

I was thinkin about him
Im thinkin about me
Im thinkin about us
Where we gunna be
Open my eyes…
And it was only just a dream

So i travel back down that road
Wish you come back
No one knows
And i realize, it was only just a dream

And i be ridin
And i swear i see your face and every time
I try to get my usher on but i cant let it burn
And i just hope that he notice he the only one i yearn for
No more sooner will i learn

Didn’t give him all my love
I guess now i got my payback
Now im in the club thinking all about my boy
hey
He was so easy to love
But wait, i guess taht love wasnt enough
im goin through it every time that i’m alone
Now im wishing he would just pick up the phone
But he made a decision that he wanted to move on
Cuz i was wrong

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up

And now theyre gone and you wish you could give them everything

I was thinkin about him
Im thinkin about me
Im thinkin about us
Where we gunna be
Open my eyes…
And it was only just a dream

So i travel back down that road
Wish you come back
No one knows
And i realize, it was only just a dream

ability

When Im all alone without people chillin me up, there you come again in my mind. I wonder how to forget about you. Yess Im laughing when Im with them, but nobody knows what I feel. When Im at the place we use to spend time together. I stare the place awhile, I wanted to seat where we seated the other day but you're not there so it makes a big different. I wanted to go all the places we went before but I'm not strong enough to see our memories there by my own. When you're in my mind Im happy act but when you went away with a smile, I was so down. Yess Its not a normal game. It is between me and you both of us, But you posted every post about game. You should know how my feeling was when I read it. I want to be yours and you were mine. But sadly it wouldn't happen aite? But I wish it could.

goneeee

You must be havin fun aite? Take care ok b. Make sure you're alright ok. Sure you're havin more fun without me in your life kan?

for you

Heyy sweetheart, you use to be my sweetdream all day long. And more to my man n my love. You know without you everything is miserable. I didn't know it would end up like this. This is fuckin pain, cause I miss you mr. You pop out every single minute in my mind. When I'm with my friends they tried so hard to chill me up, and I smile for awhile than you appear again. Why you treat me like this mr? My exam is coming I couldn't concentrate at all. You said you gonna make a deal back after my exam. Are you? It seem so hard for me to forget about you. When you appear and you were smiling at me. That makes me wanna cry. And I cried when I read all your text. Please Im begging you. All I need now is I want you to say I love you to me. I lose you now. You're not mine but I still love you. I need you. I want you. But I know the answer is no for me to have you back. Seriously Aidil, I'm sorry.

I love you

Sincerely,

Alyssa Han

tolerate

I've been tolerate with you all the time b. It is just because I love our relationship. I'm tired of arguing. All I want is you to be happy with me :)

wanna be with you every day.

Sayang, I LOVE YOU!

Sayang, I NEED YOU!

Sayang, I MISS YOU!

Sayang, no matter what happen between us I'll be loving you as the day when you and me became one. Thanks for everything sayang. Thanked God he gave me you sayang, He gave me such a good guy that can make me laugh of his stupid jokes, A good kisser, a open hearted guy and lots more sayang. Sayang, I don't know how is my life without you. Cause you make me crazy bout you when I'm with you. Seriously sayang, yesterday when you didn't text me, I wanted to cry cause Im afraid you'll leave me by yesterday. But now I'm strongly believe that no one will leave each other. Sayang, the reason I love you is when Im with you I feel comfortable, safe n lovable. Nothing can make me change my mind to love someone else besides you Aidil.

Aidil

Sayang! I miss you. Thanks for spending your time with me sayang ytd night :) Sayang, this time I'm totally in love with you. Aidil, I couldn't know how is my life without you later on. Seriously, when you give me the goodbye kiss I wanted to stop the time, And wanna be with you everyday. Sayang, our lips is like pinkish in colour cause we kiss all night :) Sayang, is it hurt when I bite your tongue? :) Sorry sayang tak sengaja. Sayang remember when I sing the impossible song and your name on it? You was laughing on it. I miss your smile sayang :(

P/S ; Aidil, I'm sorry if I've make you in trouble. And I'm still waiting for you text Aidil.

I love you AIDIL ZAINAL :)

Celeste Han Wei San

I love you lil Monster

You are always my small sista.

Tell me and wake me up when Charmaine beats you.

Than I'll slap her for you ok Mei Mei.

Jia Jia is always here for you Celeste.

SAYANG

Sayang, I would say that I love you so much. But I can't answer when you ask me how much n why I love you. Cause the great reason I can't answer It's because I don't know how to describe how much I love you and how much I need you in my life. I love you strongly and deeply. No one know how much I love you. Sayang, I would like to stop the time when I'm with you cause I really need you by my side everyday every second minutes n hour. I loves everything on you, there is no reason for me to hate you. Cause you're the reason for me to breath in this world. Sayang, Im willing to give up anything to just spend my time with you. Sayang, even thought you're far from me. But you stand right here in my heart. Cause without you sayang Im nothing. You're like my everything sayang. Sayang for me love is never wanting to lose the faith, never wanting to give up and never truly moving on. Cause love is knowing and praying in the deepest part of what's left of your heart that feels the same. The best feeling i get from you sayang is when you smile at me and told me that you love me even its just for a second but you've crossed my mind. Whatever it is sayang no one can separate us. Like I told you I wanna be with you forever n ever. And I won't despair to stop loving you till one day we had a big fight ever.I LOVE YOU AIDIL!

My love

Even time past so fast when we were together, but I appreciate every moment with you sayang.

When we were together like no one with us. Cause all I see is only you. You stole I heart by only one night. But when you admit that you like me, It was so cool cause I admired you from the first look. Sayang remember when I told you when are you going to purpose me, I was kidding cause in text you don't want to have commitment with me cause when we broke up, I'll nvr talk to you again, But dreams come true cause you're mine now. Only God knows how much I miss you now. I hope everything gonna be alright when I'm not with you. Remember sayang, how much I love you and when I'm with you I don't mind having life difficultly with you all I want is having you by my side and settle the problems together. Thanks sayang for everything. I love you

Great brothers

Well after having a great time with my sisters n brothers at Cherating, I can see how much they care about me, how much they love me, Espcially Yaw n Boy. My godd I didnt realize how much the love me as a small sister. Haha, couldnt expect we were so close until now. Yaw called me all the night to make sure Im okay with Akmal, And he was so worried about Eatty, we were like real brother n sister. Wish it was so true. Haha the great part is when we celebrate Boy's birthday in Sunway. Haha, we was touched with us but of course Its his bday so wanted all to be the best :)

Are you the one?

I can only think of you,

And the joy you bring.

You're my everything but you're not always there when I needed you.

Some of the things that you do make me question you baby..

All I need is one I need someone to talk to,

To be close to.

Boy show me some affection save the question

are you the one?

My life such a struggle

I make the catch but then I fumble

When I drive the choppers boo

I can only think of you

That I need your love

And arms around me

I can hope to seize inside

And I can't explain why

All I need is one

I need someone to talk to

To be close to

All I need is one

Boy show me some affection

Save the question

Are you the one?

TIPSSS

Some tips Guys should know bout Girls :)


Sometimes I hesitate before picking up my phone, because I hope it's from you, but I know it's not. And even if it is you, I wouldn't know what to say.

Don't you dare lie to us because 85% of the time we already know the answer. We just want to hear you tell us.

Dont be that one guy. That guy that messes with girls to the point where he just makes them feel like an ugly worthless piece of crap, And then you think she's taking it as a joke. Even if you did intend it to be a joke, she wont necessarily interpret it that way.

We have no Idea why we fall for you. Maybe its that goofy smile, or those beautiful eyes, or the way you can always seem to make us feel better or more confident about ourselves or the way you can make us laugh. Point is, We don't know what it is about you that makes us like you, but we do anyways, so don't stress If we cant tell you why we're attracted to you.

( I love this )A promise is a promise. Under no circumstances do you EVER break one.

we look for that one guy who knows what we're thinking without having to say a single word.

Every girl has that one girlfriend who will never approve of you. Don't take it personally. That one girlfriend simply doesn't think any guy is good enough for her best friend.

I trust you with my heart, I expect you to take good care of it. It scares the living shit out of me that you have it, but you do, and All I can hope is that you handle it with care.

Sometimes we get to close to you for our own good, and when that happens it almost always comes back around to us and bites us in the ass. Try to get us close to you, but make sure we don't regret it

If you're our ex, don't date our best friend, because that just makes you a douche. Maybe a month or two after words, but don't just jump to our best friend.

Alrighty. Lets get something straight here. I like you, and you like me, so why are we "waiting"? Grow a pair and ask me out.

When You go away for long periods of time, or even the weekend, we're automatically put in a bad mood. Please make sure you text us. Or do one step better and call us :)

We understand that you want to hang out with your best friends too. We respect that. But you have to tell us if you want to spend more time with them If you want us to know you want to spend more time with them. We're not mind reader.

When we say Its not worth bringing it up, what we really mean is that its not worth you getting upset over, so we're not gonna tell you. Please don't jump to conclusions because chances are, its really not worth bringing up.

If we text you and ask you when we get to see you next, and you reply with something like "Start Walking" Believe me, we WILL start walking. We want to see you that much. But be forewarned, when we get to you, we wont be happy with you.

We forgive easily... most of the time. Just prove to us that you're sincerely sorry and a lot of things will be forgiven for. This is a good time to remember that chocolate is our best friend.

:'(

GODDD!! I missed him so much, I missed the time he came to curve and see me. When I saw him, I just cant control, I wanted to say HI, but Im afraid. Even you had dumped me before this you broke my heat into pieces, but Im so stupid, How I could remember such a jerk like you in my life, I just cant stop missing you. I just wanted you to smile at me once. Than it could be my happiest day. Do you miss me like I do? Do you love me like I do? I wish I could have you back in my life. I don't know why am i crying for you now. Wake up la Alyssa. Stop hoping it hurts your feelings again!

nigtmare

Thought we're perfect for each other forever, but it seem wrong and only last for a week. But Im glad to hear you sweet talk during we're in the same shoes. Its my wrong to accept n have you in my life and make my heart broke into pieces. Your promises make me feel warm, your love make me feel comfortable. But faith didnt let us be together. Today, I've make up my mind to let you go, and wake up from the nightmare that you gave me. But the only thing that cant be erase is that you told me before that you loved me and Im the only girl you trusted n cant live without me. But dont worry, it will slowly erase by itself. thank you hafiz johari

sincerely, alyssa han

I STILL by Backstreet Boys

Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
Baby

No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Now that you're gone
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
And I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)

I try to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know

That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Ohhhh
Wish I could find you
Just like I found you then
Ohhhhh (can't live without you)

Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you

29-03-2010 till 10-04-2010

Is this how we end our relation?
Is like I just heard you told me that you love me 2 day ago,
but today, we're breaking up.
I just dont know what to do
And forget bout you.
I know I'm just not good enough for you
But the only thing that I can say now is I Love You So Much.
Why there's no chance for us to fixed our relation?

Its not over- Secondhand Serenade

My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over

picture

Here comes some of my flying picture today hahah
Alyssa Han Sue Mei pontteng sekolah today!

FLY FLY

Today, 8-04-2010 fly again. ahaha
Firstly Yaw pick me and bie up at 8am
Than pick zaza, isma n shiera.
lepak NZ, tak da kerja hisap rokok mcm orang bodoh
Than we were so bored yaw took us to Mid Valley.
Than sesat dlm garden mcm orang tak berduit :)
Here is some picture of us flying.

asking

If you're asking if I need you, the answer is forever.
If you're asking if I will leave you, the answer is never.
If you're asking what I value the answer is you.
If you're asking would i die for you, the answer is yes.
If you asking if I love you the answer is I REALLY DO!

FATE

Meeting you is a fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you I had no control :)

What dont you understand?

If you don't really know what the hell i'm doing,
you could be walking, down the street,
and if a guy know this is me, then he'll be upset.
But if i'm walkin with you, holdin hands on? anybody can see what that means,
shouldn't wear a sign that says don't look at me.

baby im all yours,
kissin and holdin all in public,
why do you think that's all for ?
I don't give a damn bout nobody but you,
but you always question, thinkin i'm creepin without a reason,
why are you always
lemme ask you a question .

Tell me oh
what don't you understand,
doing all i can, you do know that im your
What oh, don't you understand,
if i wanted someone else , then i would be with someone else but that else the one is you .

and it's getting annoying
and i can't prove with what i think ,
that you been checking me, for me, all on my cellphone.
but if you dont then just leave what with me youre calling,
what i gotta do to make you see, tell me something girl cause this is killing me.

changes'

i realize many changes in you .

FCUK!

STARTING FROM NOW NO MORE SHARING SECRETS WITH YOU!

SINGLE:)

I'm SINGLE FOR A MOMENT :)

24th Jan 2010 , my handphone lost at faza's BBQ event, idk where is it now. my simcard is also lost in the phone, plus i know who take it. but nvm i get to use a nice number and line :)

sincerely , alyssa :0

moment with shiera

i love this part kakak :)
ahaha
shiera dah tua :)